Tired of this world I'm into

 09/11/21

8:03 PM. 

I can't sleep. I have to sleep. After working at night, I am doing the laundry now. I want to feel tired and sleep. I am thinking a lot of things. Am I really a bad person? Am I not a good wife? A good mother? A good part of the family? I am wondering why they are treating me like this. I am slowly getting tired, tired inside. I don't want to feel this again but I guess I'm gonna face it again. 

10/22/21 12:11PM

Same feels. I am really tired. extremely tires and exhausted of this world. I really don't know why should I have to feel this. I really want to rest. I am crying, I am crying because I was so tired but I cannot do anything. I have to work, I have to take good care of my husband and child. I am really burn out. I don't feel anger, I felt weakness. I want to feel pain. I want to feel it again. The urge to do it again, and feel the joy. I want to feel that again. I don't want this feeling. Day by day passes, I am slowly feel  like dead. I want to go somewhere. Somewhere away from the place I stayed. I want to feel peace, even if for 1 day. I want to feel alive again. Can someone bring me to a place I can have my peace? I just want to rest.