10:21 PM
Hey. Do you know what I'm feeling right now? I want to hurt myself. I don't want what I feel right now. I want to let it out. I want to hurt myself physically. I want to stab myself from the heart many times to stop the anger, sadness and pain I am feeling right now. And the reason why I feel this, no reason. Well, now I realize I can't handle pressure, I can't multi-task. I get easily pissed because of that and it made my day bad, so bad that I want to kill myself. Is it better to jump in a building, feel the air while you are going down then baam, you're gone. I'd rather choose physically pain than emotional pain. I really want to hurt myself but I don't want to make a sin. The pain while hurting myself slowly, it makes me feel slowly relieve. Hey. Can I do it or nah?
